You say you need friends who understand you and that you can’t find that understanding anywhere. Ask yourself first what it is in you that you want them to understand. And even if it is for your highest aspirations, why do you insist on others entering your heart and your soul to know what is happening within? Be content to know that you have the understanding and support of angels, those luminous entities that populate space, and God himself who created you.
As for the rest, your feelings, desires, moods, sympathies and dislikes, tell yourself that they are merely a matter of temperament and that everyone has their own. It is not reasonable to expect others to be interested in them and to understand them. Actually, are you sure you really understand yourself? No! And yet you would like others to understand you!
Omraam Mikhael Aivanhov